So, I sat there and repeated “I might not be able to get pregnant and have babies” 200 times. The first ten were really painful. I had to stop between each statement just to catch my breath a bit. It was hard to hear myself say it, because it was like admitting that it could happen.
After about 30 times, I stopped myself because it felt like I was making light of the situation. I thought that making it boring meant that it was no longer important to me or that I didn’t care about it. Not sure if that makes sense?
Anyway, I continued on, and really started to get bored of it. It also almost became an out of body experience – like I was listening to someone else repeat the statement over and over. I also started stumbling on my words. It was like when you write the same word over and over again, and it starts looking wrong! I started to get my words mixed up.
By the end, I was really happy to be done. My anxiety about the statement went from about 7/10 to 1/10. After the first 10-20 times, I didn’t find it too hard. However, I could see it being way more difficult if, for example, I just found out that I wasn’t pregnant.
It’s an interesting technique – I kind of felt like an idiot while doing it, but it did help reduce my anxiety. I suggest trying it out the next time you’re sick with worry about something.
More worry tips to come!