A year ago, I was excited, but nervous about starting my BEd program. Would I be able to do it? Will I get to spend any time with my family? What kind of affect will that have on my kids and on our relationship? Will it all be worth it? But, I thought once I go through the program, it’ll be smooth sailing.
Now that I’m done, I realize that the hard part isn’t going back to school…it’s the part after…where I have to find work.
I heard from people everywhere, teachers and non-teachers alike, how hard it is to become a full-time teacher in the school system here. I knew that coming in, but my response has always been “I know…but I’m willing to put in the time to get there”, and that’s still true.
But, the problem is, I can only put in the time IF I get into the system…and that can’t happen without becoming a supply teacher first. And THAT can’t happen until the board(s) OPEN the supply list to take applications. As of yet, that hasn’t happened.
So, now I feel stuck. I have been looking into both part-time and full-time jobs, both related and unrelated to teaching. Through this, I’ve discovered that I can’t afford to work part-time because of daycare costs. So, that’s off the table. On the other hand, a full-time job would mean not being able to apply for the supply list if and when it opens…which is what I NEED to do in order to get on my way to teaching in the classroom, which is what I WANT.
So, now what, then? I’ve decided to keep myself available in case the supply list opens. DH and I when over everything on the weekend and came up with a sustainable, though not ideal, plan for the fall. E will be in senior kindergarten, and we’ll put him in before school care. C will continue to go to daycare 2x per week (like now). That gives me 2 days a week to volunteer in local schools so I can get into the classrooms more. Then, if and when the list opens up, and I apply, and they offer me a spot, I can start supplying at least 2x per week to begin with until we can bump C’s daycare enrolment up (because that’s a huge ball of wax to deal with too).
Nothing is easy these days. Sometimes I dream about having no other responsibilities but my own needs, and how much easier this all would be.
PS: randomly, why can’t I see all my category options for my blog posts in WordPress? It only lets me scroll down to “D”. 😛