I had been struggling with the decision of whether or not to leave my current job for the past month or so. There are many reasons why I have been considering this. Some are personal, others are job-related, but mostly because other opportunities have presented themselves.
I have signed on to teach at both the university (first-year astronomy course) and the college (first-year math), and both start in January. I will also be volunteering with a high-school physics teacher. These are great opportunities to investigate more options in the field of education, and I just couldn’t pass them up.
So, even though I have many, MANY, good (even excellent!) reasons to leave my current job, I still feel THE GUILT!
“But I’m leaving right in the MIDDLE of the term!”
“Are they going to be able to find a replacement for me?”
“Is the student going to be negatively impacted because of me?”
and don’t forget the favourite:
“Everyone is going to think I’m AWFUL!”
I spoke to numerous people about this decision, both inside and outside education, at different points in their careers, and asked their advice. One central theme was that the only person who will look out for me is myself. And if there’s one thing in the time since my stroke is I need to look out for myself.
So, yes, the guilt is there, but it will lesson with time (isn’t time amazing for things like that?). And, come January with all of its new starts, the excitement will overtake those feelings. I’m already getting excited!